Assalamualaikum wahai readers :)
Took me a while to update But, here I am.
I realized that I haven't post ANYTHING for the past few months now. I
guess I treated my summer holiday at its maximum. A total holiday with
no responsibility attached at all. Haha. It was fun to be ignorant,
lavish and fun loving for a while but, then it hits me that... I'm not
that person. That guilt I bear the whole time was excruciating to me now
when I look back. I didn't contribute much to my so called 'purpose of
life' at all. Oh the agony! Whether I did it on purpose or not, I was
unclear during that time. Maybe a little part of me saw how much tasks
needed to be done in my second year so, it persuade me to hog myself to
instant gratification. It did made me happy but, I didn't find it
fulfilling to my actual needs. It took me a while to learn self control
especially when I heard my dearest nini uncle (or our oldest uncle who
we referred as our grandad) passed away a few weeks after I'm back in
Aberystwyth. Was I sad? Ofcourse I was. Everyone knows how he seemed so
gleeful everytime we visited him, he also helped me a lot and give
essential advices which made me succesfully achieved my dream. He would
be missed but, my situation forced me to hold up and keep the heart
strong. It made me awake to the real life that I have my feet set on.
Semoga roh nini Hj Apong selalu dirahmati Allah..Amin..
Setting foot was also brought me to a new environment. I'm not living
with my old flatmates, yup. A different environment opens a new chapter
to my journey. Me and 3 of my Bruneian friends rented a private house
this year and gosh.. responsibility started to sink in my head:
something I find foreign to my dictionary. Ok.. maybe not foreign but,
rather new to the concept. One lesson I learn about responsibility is
not to take things careless..umm.. I learnt about it after my rather
2months old Sony Experia GO had a huge crack glasses due to my wreckless
gesture (ayun tia lagi tangan atu..baru tau) so, I had to find a new
phone and decided to get an Iphone 5 instead. One thing I choose this
mahagony god was because they have black in stock and I was desperate to
find a new phone. If I delay anymore further, it might posed more
problems. It's a huge risk to take but, I'm willing to go through this.
Determination my fellow friends.. determination.
What is more, I did had some fun before this month started. I went to a
social for International students organized by one of our Jordanian
friends; Rislan. Haha... It's fun to see loads of people from different
continent meet up and speak different languages. It's like a salad
fiesta! French guys were lucious with their accent, Middle Eastern with
their full blast voices, South American were adventurous and asians..
well.. we nodded and speak broken english haha. What ever the moral of
the story of that day, I had a good fun :)
Now, the main concern for now is whether will I continue to slack of
and remain hidden throughout the weeks of absence from posting in my
blog? Maybe. I hope this profound effort to get my head focused for once
will be constant. I cannot make anymore promises because I'm scared of
breaking it. No one break a pinky promise haha. For sure... I missed my
hometown. I missed my cats! Gosh, I pampered them with everything I can
offer. I even spent my allowance on them! Oh my babies...I hope you both
will still be there when I return next year. Well, that's all for now. I
bid you adieu. Salam!
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